It would be nice if change could always occur in a smooth and flowing way, but that’s not the case. Recently, I had a conversation with my acupuncturist, where we discussed this season of solitude I’m in and what it means to flow gracefully between space for yourself while tending to relationships with others.
The reflection made me think that an interpersonal style like this, might be an ideal, organic one. But then I started to think more deeply about that word, and nature in general.
Life is diverse in the way things materialize and grow. Plants will sprout gradually, according to season, and then we also have storms, earthquakes, where buildups of energy occur without notice, to suddenly release momentous displays of transformation.
All this to say, that shifts of nature are not slow and smooth or fast and disruptive. They are all of the above, and someplace in between.
Being an organic creature, I want to support myself with this insight, because life has brought a myriad of circumstances leading me to make difficult choices and being recipient to changing environments. It’s been confusing to center my needs with the fluctuations, but I think I’ve come to a clarity that works for now.
I’m a Virgo Sun, and in Astrology, there is a Modality associated with this sign is called Mutability. Mutable energy adapts quickly to change and can also change quickly. I’m valuing the process of taking my time with things that matter, but there is this other part that asks me to pivot when needed, even if it’s surprising.
My journey encourages me to embody who I am, and this means accepting that when I receive a signal from my body to shift, it’s in my best interest to do so. The trick is that doing so may not always be the smoothest, or most favorable decision.
I feel a sadness knowing that I may disappoint or be disappointed by life’s waves of experience. But there is a deeper wisdom I’m exploring, and that’s embodiment does not mean perfect, or right, or even accountable. Embodiment is simply aligning with one’s authentic energy and learning/growing through it.
Right now, I’m re-evaluating and making adjustments to some relationships and communities. People and spaces I’ve cherished and then suddenly, it’s not working for me. I hope to leave behind imprints of love through the transitions. And should nature have me pivot back, to arrive with an embodied understanding of why change was needed in the first place.